just something i need to express
before i bottled it all up and throw to somewhere deep..
gee i really dont know what im thinking or what i actually wants. part of me want this but the other kept telling me not. im confused.
which choice is the right one? how can i make it clear and untangle all the complicated thoughts.
sometimes i find that its hard to trust.
i dont know, i really dont. why is it so hard?
maybe im just too paranoid or something. or maybe im just too afraid. afraid of going through it again.
i really dont wish to.
i just want to be left alone.
letting out inner feelings which cant be kept within any longer.
